Total pages in book: 64
Estimated words: 59448 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 297(@200wpm)___ 238(@250wpm)___ 198(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 59448 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 297(@200wpm)___ 238(@250wpm)___ 198(@300wpm)
He looks at me with that unreadable look again and writes on the clipboard. Grinding my teeth, I look to the wall again, curious what he’s saying about me; thinking.
“Stop writing about me. I’m fine, there’s nothing wrong with me and you can’t fix me.” I slowly turn my head toward him, glaring at him through hooded eyes.
His thin lips turn into an arrogant smirk. That spark of anger inside of me blooming into a rage ready to plow his stupid face in.
“One thing I’ve learned in my fifteen years of working here. Those that need my help the most are the first to say they’re fine, that they’re normal.” My mouth parts, I want to scream at him, cuss him out even, but I’m left speechless as he leaves the room.
I’m not crazy.
I’m normal.
Breathing heavily, feeling agitated as ever, I feel my nostrils flare. The thought of a normal kid running with others and playing innocently flaring in the back of my head like a commercial on a cable TV show for children.
I’m not that. Far from it. I’d be the one on the stairs, wearing all black, looking at them all with hatred. Their bright-colored clothes and Cheshire Cat grins making me want to stomp over to them and tell them life isn’t fucking rainbows and smiles.
Later on, after I settled down, I walk out into the main room, the air in here carrying a chill, and find the girl in the corner is still drawing. Passing the children of the corn watching TV, I head to her and sit across the round table. Her hand slides across the paper as she hums a song I don’t recognize, drawing a flower, but it looks wilted. Weird. Her hair is even more crazy than earlier, kinked and curly like she hasn’t brushed it in days. She seems lost in her own world, not caring what others think of her.
“Nice flower,” I finally speak. Her hand stops drawing for a split second, her bottom lip slipping into her mouth, before looking up at me. I hold my breath as she looks me right in the eyes. Hers so green they look like the grass in Central Park.
“It’s a sunflower,” she informs me, her voice soft and silky. She sits back, flipping through the pages of the sketchbook, almost all of them drawn with the same looking sunflower and all of them looking near dead. My brows furrow at the near-dead ominous flowers, it doesn’t suit her. Her down-to-earth energy, beautiful bright eyes, and lively hair.
The straitjacket giving me a bit of courage, I scoot up to the table to get closer to her. She watches my movement, and I notice the side of her palm covered in black-silver from the lead of the pencil. She tucks some of her hair behind her ear, resting an elbow on the table, she holds her hand behind her head and smiles at me.
“Did you know that on dark days, sunflowers turn toward each other for energy?” She tilts her head to the side, waiting for me to reply.
I shake my head. Why would I know that?
She gives me an awkward look, drops her hand to the table, and begins to shade around the flower.
“My name is Luna,” she whispers, and I feel a tug of attraction toward her. The name is perfect, like her.
“Mine’s Romeo,” I whisper back.
Her hand slows down in shading, a smile spreading across her face before she continues to sketch at normal speed. And that’s it. Neither of us saying a word as we both sit side by side. She draws, I watch. The sun behind the clouds becoming darker as the day moves on, making the nurses turn on the lights.
She looks up at me and I look back, but she doesn’t need to talk for me to understand her, and I don’t need to respond for her to know I’m next to her.
Two staff members that have been pacing the floor all day suddenly come and set trays of meatloaf and Jell-O on our table, the smell making me want to gag. I haven’t eaten since yesterday but looking at the food placed in front of me, I can say with confidence that I’m not hungry. My eyes flick up to the fat man wearing gray slacks and a white button-up shirt. His name tag hanging from the pocket of his shirt crooked.
Jim
“Let me take that straitjacket off you, son,” Jim offers, and I jerk away from him, scooting the plastic blue chair as far into the corner as it can go.
“No!” I snap, fear making my voice crack. This coat is like a cape, making me feel safe knowing I won’t hurt anyone if I’m in it.
“Come on, you can’t eat with it on!” he growls, irritated, swiping at me from over the table.