Total pages in book: 133
Estimated words: 123212 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 616(@200wpm)___ 493(@250wpm)___ 411(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 123212 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 616(@200wpm)___ 493(@250wpm)___ 411(@300wpm)
Eli, my sweet Elijah. He just looks hurt. Never in his wildest dreams would he think that I would have stayed inside that ballroom with Colton, and I see in his eyes the way he’s questioning my loyalty. Kairo though, he just looks pissed. He’s not a grudge holder. Out of all of them, Kai is probably the easiest to get along with. He’s so simple. All black and white, no grey areas. He’ll tell me I fucked up and then we’ll move on.
I finally meet them by the edge of the pool and my gaze never moves from Nic’s.
I prepare to start groveling.
He stands before me, waiting for an explanation and I see in his eyes that he’s ready to blow. Had I been anyone else, I would have already been forgotten. He’d already be back in Breakers Flats with the boys, looking for a replacement or forgetting the bullshit with a good time.
His eyes bore into mine and as I try to reach for him, he flinches away, absolutely gutting me. “Please, Nic. Don’t hate me,” I beg. “I swear, it’s not what you think.”
His expression is cold, deadly, lethal. It fucking sucks. “Are you fucking him?”
I shake my head. “No, I … I haven’t fucked him.”
“Yet,” he grunts, reading my unspoken thoughts.
“Nic, please. Don’t make this harder than it needs to be. Colton and I … we have a connection. I can’t even explain it but it’s so not what you’re thinking.”
He scoffs. “Please, tell me what it is you think I’m thinking.”
“Nic.”
“Please,” he says, sweeping his hand in front of him in a gesture for me to continue. Eli groans as Sebastian scrunches his face, knowing damn well that when Nic throws down a comment like that, I’m not about to hold back. Kai doesn’t respond though, just continues staring, probably wanting to hear what it is that I have to say.
“You asked for it, Nic,” I grumble, letting out a frustrated sigh but not once tearing my hard glare from his, hoping that somehow he’ll understand where the hell he went wrong.. “You think I’m whoring myself out to him like I’m that fucking low. You think I’m getting extra benefits by fucking the boss to get myself ahead in life but what’s more, you think he’s taking something from you, something that is no longer yours to take because when it comes to Dominic Garcia, everything is about him. Who gives a shit about what I think? Who cares that I actually have a connection with the guy? Who fucking cares that every time I’m around him my heart beats a million miles per minute? No. None of that fucking matters because Nic has his fucking panties in a twist.”
Sebastian takes a big step back and sucks in a sharp breath as Eli grumbles under his breath. “Ah, fuck. She went there.”
Kairo just continues to stare.
“Yeah, I fucking went there,” I snap, “because right now I’m being punished for choosing between the four guys who should have my back and the guy who I might have something real with.”
“REAL?” Nic demands, stepping closer. “That’s not fucking real. What we had was real. The guy is a fucking loser. He treats you like shit. He’ll never love you. You’re a convenient fuck to him. Some poor bitch who’ll keep her mouth shut.”
My hand slaps hard across his face. “Jealousy isn’t pretty on you Nic. Fucking pull your shit together. Stop hating on me for wanting to move on. You fucked us up. You slept with another woman. What we had wasn’t real. You were the one fucking the poor girl for convenience. Tell me, Nic. Was it nice not having to go out to find some random slut to fuck each night knowing you could just fuck me instead?”
“Don’t you try to tell me what the fuck I was feeling.”
“Then stop doing the same bullshit to me. I have something real with Colton. I don’t even understand it yet but when I tell the four guys who are supposed to love and support me through any decisions I make, whether they think I’m fucking up or not, they should have my back just as I would have theirs.”
Sebastian breaks. “Come on, O. You know I got your back. I just … we don’t trust him. He treated you like shit from the second you walked in here. He will never have your back like the way we have it.”
“Oh, really?” I question. “That’s what you really think?”
“That’s what we fucking know,” Nic says.
I shake my head, stepping right up to Nic and putting myself in front of him. “You don’t know shit, Nic. You haven’t been here. You don’t walk in my shoes. Your possessive asshole act is starting to get old.”
Eli subtly steps in between us and stands as awkwardly as possible, knowing if Nic wants to get to me, his ass will get laid out.