Total pages in book: 170
Estimated words: 160166 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 801(@200wpm)___ 641(@250wpm)___ 534(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 160166 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 801(@200wpm)___ 641(@250wpm)___ 534(@300wpm)
I could just keep watching him. If we were together, really together and not just…doing whatever this is while I’m not allowed to leave this house, then this is what it could be like in the mornings. He’d get ready to go, I’d watch him, and then go back to sleep. Or get started with my own day. I don’t know, exactly.
But I can’t keep watching him. He’s being quiet on purpose, which probably means he’s ready to tiptoe out of here without saying a word to me. I can’t be left alone again. I can’t let that happen.
“Declan?”
Slowly, he turns to look back at me. I could’ve sworn he slept next to me last night, but he has shadows under his eyes that make it look like he hasn’t slept at all. He lets out a breath when he sees me sitting up.
He licks his lower lip before telling me, “I have to go somewhere.”
I push my hair back from my face and take a deep breath. I slept last night. Really slept. Straight through, like nothing in the world could get to me. I blink at the light coming through the curtains. “What time is it?”
“Early. I didn’t mean to wake you.” Declan puts on his watch and the metal clinks as he says, “About five. I—” He shakes his head. “I must’ve passed out last night when I got in, otherwise I’d have been ready by now.”
“You’re leaving?” The realization that I’m going to be alone again hits hard. Nearly a panic. I feel just the way I did last night when Carter brought me up here and left me. The peace I felt while sleeping vanishes.
I don’t want to be stuck here. I don’t want to be trapped here. It doesn’t seem like I have options. If I can’t leave the house, if I can’t call anyone, then that’s it. I have to wait until Declan and his brothers tell me what’s going to happen. My life is completely in their hands.
Not just Declan's. All the Cross brothers.
The thought of it sends a chill down my spine.
“I have to go,” he says softly, like he doesn’t want to leave me here, either.
My eyes beg him, but his returning look is one that is apologetic, yet unmoving. Swallowing thickly, I ask, “Are you going to be gone long?”
Declan frowns, tension in his eyes. Something bubbles under the surface, and once again I can’t help but notice that he knows much more than I do. It's something that scares me.
“Declan. What’s wrong?” I manage to question, not knowing where the line is with us anymore.
“Nothing.”
The sheets rustle as I sit up straighter. “Please don’t lie to me.”
He buttons his crisp white collared shirt, taking his time with each one, but he pauses and looks at me. This time, there’s a crackle, almost like electricity in the air. It makes me feel short of breath. The expression on Declan’s face tells me that he’s making a decision and that I need to understand.
“Declan…” His name is cautious on my lips.
“I want you to marry me.”
The world stops. It just seems to hang there, not spinning, no time passing. I’m not even sure my heart is beating. Marry him? After everything? I don’t know what I imagined he would say, but I didn’t see this coming at all.
The shocked word leaves me, “What?” He can’t have said what I heard.
Declan’s expression is so unnervingly serious that it reminds me of how he was when he came into the bedroom last night. “Don’t say yes or no right now.”
I can’t say anything. I don’t say a word. He asked me to marry him. Declan Cross just said those words to me.
“I’m going to go out for a while. Then I’ll be back, and we can talk. Just don’t say no.”
My body is ringing. This is all too much, too fast. I can barely breathe.
I’m overwhelmed. I thought the night of sleep had mostly made up for how stressed and tired I was, but it doesn’t seem to have done enough now.
Even if I could speak, what am I supposed to say to him? I don’t know Declan as well as I thought I did, but I don’t think he’s lying about having to head out for a while.
I open my mouth to tell him that I won’t say no, not right now, and end up nodding instead.
He drops his hands away from the buttons of his shirt. “Can you just let me love you right now?”
All the turmoil in my heart doesn’t make me want to deny him. I’m not sure of anything right now, but those words out of Declan’s mouth feel like a life raft. Like they’re the only things that can keep me from drowning. They feel like something to hold on to, at least to get me through to when he comes back—