Total pages in book: 88
Estimated words: 83676 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 418(@200wpm)___ 335(@250wpm)___ 279(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83676 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 418(@200wpm)___ 335(@250wpm)___ 279(@300wpm)
“No, please, Ciaran. I need it.”
I chuckle as she tries to lower herself back onto me, but I don’t let her. “I’ll give you what you need.” I hold her leg tighter in my arm then watch as I slowly guide myself back into her. So slow, it’s almost painful, until I’m fully encased in her sweet, delicious heat. “And you need to come on this cock now, Lou. Come for me.”
She cries out as I move all the way out then slam back into her. It only takes two more thrusts until she’s digging her heel into my ass from where her leg is wrapped around my waist while she bellows my name and comes all over me. I am lost in the pleasure she brings me and how fucking beautiful she is on my cock. How well she takes it so deep and so enthusiastically. Seeing her swollen pink heat split open wide over my thick cock is a sight I would kill for. Fuck, I want more. I want all of her. My fingers bite into her thigh, slamming into her over and over. My balls pull up tight, and heat explodes in my gut before I am the one bellowing her name deep from my soul as I thrust up and fill her with my come. She shakes underneath me, her eyes wild as she clings to me, holding me tight against her.
I can’t breathe. I can’t even think as I pant against her bare chest. I shift to the side, kissing one of her boobs before turning to the other to give it the same love. I press a kiss to the middle of her chest, feeling her heart pounding in her chest just as hard as mine is. I then kiss her throat, her jaw, before her mouth meets mine. I melt into her kiss as her arms wrap around my neck, holding me closer than before. When we part, our eyes meet, and I’m in awe of her. She has truly been such a pillar in my life these last couple weeks. She comes to my games, she cheers for me, and then she’s here when I come home to her.
“I’ll be miserable without you too, Lou.”
Her eyes widen for only a moment before she leans her head into mine. “Good. Misery loves company.” I grin for her, and she returns it. “But don’t let it affect your game, you hear me? I’ll be here when you get home.”
I kiss her nose. “Promise?”
“Promise.”
CHAPTER 41
Louisa
“I’m having dreams again.”
Eliza looks up from where she is eating her bagel, but I ignore her, my gaze on my iPad where my therapist looks back at me. I’ve been with Dr. Shaw since I left the cult, and I adore her. She has helped me heal in ways I never thought would be possible. The last couple appointments I’ve had have been just check-ins since I’ve been great, but I think she knew when I called to move my appointment up that something was up. Something I’m not excited to admit or even recognize, but I’m not sleeping, and I need some insight into why.
Dr. Shaw nods, typing on her keyboard as I wait for her to ask me whatever she needs to. I don’t have to look at Eliza to know she feels a bit betrayed that I haven’t told her what I’ve been struggling with since Ciaran left. In my defense, I haven’t wanted to recognize that I’m not sleeping because of these dreams. I tried to brush them off as a one-time thing, but for the last five days, each night has gotten worse. I don’t understand why I’m dreaming again when I haven’t had issues in over a year.
“What exactly are you dreaming, Louisa?”
I swallow hard, and I know Eliza is watching me. “It’s as if that night is playing on repeat,” I admit, looking down at my hands. I pick at my nails, my heart knocking into my ribs, and I close my eyes. I inhale deeply and let it out in a whoosh as my skin tingles. “I wake up in a cold sweat, and I can’t go back to sleep.”
“When did it start again?”
“The first night my boyfriend wasn’t home.” I open my eyes, and Eliza looks stricken. I send her a small smile and shrug. “I’m fine.”
“Hardly,” she mutters, shaking her head. “You’re dreaming of the guy who almost killed you. That’s far from fine.”
Dr. Shaw agrees. “She’s correct, you know.”
I sink my teeth into my lip as I look down at my hands again. “I don’t know why this is happening.” I exhale through my nose. “Do you think it’s because Ciaran isn’t here? I sleep so well with him, and I know it’s been over a year since I had the dreams. But I feel like it’s odd they’re coming back when he’s not here.”