Total pages in book: 104
Estimated words: 100470 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 502(@200wpm)___ 402(@250wpm)___ 335(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 100470 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 502(@200wpm)___ 402(@250wpm)___ 335(@300wpm)
All this time, I never considered Kristen was missing the family she left behind. I feel like an even bigger asshole than before.
“I think going back to town is a good idea then,” I agree with a small smile. “You seen Raegan or Ryder?”
She sits up straight and studies my face for a beat. “Raegan’s been in a bitchy mood. She and your mom sort of got into it at dinner, hence why I’m here with you rather than out there.”
Guilt strangles me.
This is all my fault.
“And Ryder?”
“He said he was going hunting. Took his dog and bailed. Your dad seemed worried about him but let him go.” Her head tilts to the side. “Why? Did you two have a fight?”
I’m not exactly eager to admit that they’re both pissed at me because I’m selfish and closed off. That I’m a confusing jumble of mixed messages and contradicting statements.
“A little bit,” I admit. “Nothing we can’t get over.”
That’s a lie.
I’ve fractured this family in ways that’ll never be repaired.
“You need to eat and leave this cabin,” Kristen says finally. “All this sleeping isn’t good for you. I know your parents are worried and they’re trying to give you space, but I don’t think it’s doing you any good.”
I need all the space.
Just me and my deserved loneliness.
“Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel better.” I give her a one-shoulder shrug. “How are you doing? I’ve been a dick and should’ve checked on you days ago.”
“I feel good. Happy.” A smile tugs at her lips. “I’m looking forward to stupid things again like driving a car, going to the movies, chatting with my mom while she makes dinner. I still can’t believe I’m going home.”
“I’m happy for you,” I say, squeezing her knee over her jeans. “You deserve to be happy.”
She sits up and leans over to kiss my forehead. “So do you, Ronan. It’ll be hard, but you’re going to have to move past Logan’s abuse. Otherwise, he’ll keep you trapped in his prison of the past. He’ll win. Don’t let that bastard win.”
“I’ll try.”
“That’s all we can do. A little each day.”
She leaves me to my thoughts and quickly cooling dinner. I don’t want Logan to keep me in his wicked clutches. I’m free of him physically and I’d give anything to be free of him mentally.
I’ll try.
That’s all we can do. A little each day.
Easier said than done.
* * *
* * *
Appalled. Furious. So fucking hurt.
My feelings are all over the place. I can’t decide if I want to punch someone or curl into a ball to cry my eyes out. All of this is so damn unfair.
Why did I have to start having feelings for Raegan in the first place?
It was much better when she hated me—when we had typical sibling rivalry. My stupid dick got hard and changed everything.
And Ronan?
There was never supposed to be any of that sort of feelings for him. He’s a guy. I don’t even like guys. But he still managed to get inside my head and confuse my horny dick.
Dad is right.
I need to go.
I need to pack up and leave this place. The temptation is too great and the consequences are too dire. I’m not strong enough to quit them.
Apparently, they’re not strong enough to quit each other either.
I’ve been trying so hard to be the responsible one around here. To remind us of what could happen if we go down that slippery slope. Raegan is reckless and female, so she doesn’t see it like I do. We’re supposed to protect our sisters, not fuck them. Ronan knows better, but after Logan fucked with his head, he’s not been the same. All his soft, tender ways have hardened. He’s doing shit that’s way out of character for him and, quite frankly, it’s freaking me out.
I’m so stressed out.
Humiliated. Disturbed. Turned on.
Seeing Ronan with his dick buried in our sister did crazy things to me. My own dick immediately hardened at the sight. Her gorgeous tits looked so damn bitable. I’d wanted to step closer to touch them—to witness their forbidden act with my own two eyes.
The humiliation took over and quickly turned to anger.
How dare Ronan treat me like I was horrible for letting Raegan get me off? And Raegan knew how upset I was that she slept with Ronan while in captivity. She’d claimed it was a bullshit gift to save her virginity from those monsters.
It was all a lie.
They clearly couldn’t keep their hands off each other once they were safe, choosing to fuck when our parents or anyone could have burst in to see.
I saw.
They’re lucky it was me.
My mind keeps spinning round and round and round. I don’t know what to do with myself or how to deal with this horrendous heartache that’s gutting me.
Mage whines, nudging the side of my leg. I reach down and scratch behind his ears. He’s been up Dad’s ass ever since he got hurt, but when I took off after catching Ronan and Raegan in the act, he somehow found me. We’ve been sitting on the other side of our property, leaned against the fence, sulking. I’m thankful for my wolf’s presence.