Total pages in book: 82
Estimated words: 74487 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 372(@200wpm)___ 298(@250wpm)___ 248(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 74487 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 372(@200wpm)___ 298(@250wpm)___ 248(@300wpm)
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The bookstore is no different, owned by two trophy wives who had some Chardonnay one day and decided to sell books. It’s housed in a three-story plantation home, different rooms dedicated to different genres, antiques and comfy couches stuffed next to towering bookshelves and stacks and piles of books. I love it.
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Today I explore the Adventure room, located on the third floor, tall windows on one side, separated by tall bookshelves. The other side is dominated by a large map, a custom piece that shows a city-planner’s view of our privileged corner of the world and the area that surrounds it.
* * *
I look at the map, my fingers trailing over the roads, finding Nathan’s estate. I trace the road that leads to town, then fan out, tip-tapping across areas I haven’t explored yet. Lockeland Springs. Madison. The Gulch.
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“Thinking of exploring Nashville?”
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I turn at the voice, one thick in a Tennessean drawl. I smile at the woman, one of the owners. She was the sort who wore diamonds with denim, and enough perfume to push me back a step. “Just realizing how little of it I’ve seen.” I glance back at the map. “What’s The Gulch?”
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“Oh.” She waves a hand dismissively. “You don’t want to waste your time there. It's just strip clubs and head shops.” She giggles, and moves closer, her long red fingernail moving across the worn paper, her next few lines lost in the hum of my mind.
* * *
“There are strip clubs here?” I interrupt her without thinking, her eyebrows raising for a moment before she responds.
* * *
“Well … yes. Of course. Hard to have a city this size without those sort of places.”
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“I …” I struggle for an explanation. “I just thought Tennessee didn't allow strip clubs.”
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She laughs off the thought, her mouth moving, more words coming out, other areas pointed out, tapas bars and parks pointed out, her nails scraping over the landscape as she rattles off a dozen things I couldn’t care less about.
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A wisp of something flickers in my brain, like an erratic synapse that is firing out of order, catching my attention. I reach for it, dig for it, but it is like the faded memory of a dream: gone. Street and city names float from her as my fingers move, back over the map, until my index finger comes to a slow, shuddering stop on Nathan’s house.
* * *
There. I feel it again. That wisp of thought. I still, trying not to pounce too aggressively on it, trying to let it wander into the light unafraid. Unease grows in me, the thought growing legs and arms and starting a hesitant crawl through my mind. I picture Nathan, stepping into the dimly lit dump that is Sammy’s. Rick’s excited announcement that I was wanted in VIP. My eyes flit across his neighborhood, one that is over five hundred miles and two states, from Destin. How many strip clubs could fit into that radius? Fifty? One hundred? A hundred clubs closer than the rundown establishment that he, Drew, and Mark walked into.
* * *
So why Sammy’s? And why, five minutes after stepping foot inside, did he ask for me?
CHAPTER 30
Confinement doesn’t necessarily require a limited space. Confinement can be a mind fuck of restraint, a person stopped in every direction of action until they stand still in a room, afraid to move. Confinement can do strange things to a person.
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Maybe that is what caused the snap. Maybe it was the two of us, both in prisons of Nathan, both desperately wanting a way out, wanting the freedom that is being withheld. I know why I am captive, my father a defenseless hour away. But what holds Drew? Why does he stay? Why does he live in this house, follow Nathan’s rules, and assist in guarding my prison?
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Confinement can drive a sane person mad. I have seen a chink in Drew’s armor. He is human, he can stumble, and he can make mistakes. He made a mistake in touching me, in giving a drowning, lonely girl hope. Hope, and an opening.
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I stare out the window of the limo, my legs demurely crossed, my hands clasping my clutch. I avoid looking forward to the front of the car, where I know Drew’s eyes will be. Watching me. The car rides have become a source of stress for me, each moment a possible opening for Nathan to start something sexual. Tonight, at least, I am safe. We have spent all evening with Raul, a foreign investor who Nathan is courting. I don’t know much except that Nathan has gone above and beyond with this man, our dinner stretching over three hours, the men already spending all day together at the site. They are drunk, their speech carrying a hint of slur, their ties loosened and spirits boisterous. Nathan sits back, and I suddenly feel his arm around my shoulders. I turn slightly to him, giving him what he wants, a loving smile, full of adoration. It is a smile I have perfected, and one he approves of.