Total pages in book: 222
Estimated words: 213974 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1070(@200wpm)___ 856(@250wpm)___ 713(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 213974 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1070(@200wpm)___ 856(@250wpm)___ 713(@300wpm)
“I don’t want to dream about this.” My voice cracked. “I can barely deal with this when I’m awake.” The words tumbled out of me like the water rushing over the rocks. “I don’t want that in my dreams. I don’t want any of that near us because this is me with you. I’m here, and nothing else—”
“It’s okay, liessa.” Something cold flashed in his eyes, something feral that even sent a chill down my spine before he tugged my cheek to his chest. “It’s okay. We don’t have to talk about any of that now.” A tremor went through him then, causing my chest to hitch. He held me in silence for several moments, the hand on the back of my head tangling in the strands of my hair.
I let the feeling of his body calm the racing of my heart. His hands were cold, but the rest of him was wonderfully warm. I soaked him in because a part of me knew this could be my only chance, real or not.
“You’re so brave. Do you know that? So godsdamn brave and loyal.” His chin rested on the top of my head as he dragged a hand up my spine. “You are more than worthy of the swords and shields of the Shadowlands.”
Seraphena will be a Consort more than worthy of the swords and shields each of you will wield to guard her.
That was what he’d said before, and a new wave of tears pricked my eyes.
“There is no one like you, Sera.”
“Stop being sweet,” I murmured, not even caring that I was basically telling myself these things. Or it was my subconscious speaking them. And it made sense because, right now, I needed the pep talk.
“I’m not being sweet.” His hand made another soothing sweep across the center of my back. “I’m only telling the truth. You’re the strongest person I know.”
I smiled, snuggling closer.
“And even when you feel fear?” He managed to somehow pull me closer to him. “You’re never afraid. There is a difference, remember?”
“I remember.”
“Good.” He dipped his head, this time pressing a kiss to my temple. “There’s something I need to ask you, liessa.”
I exhaled, long and slow. “Okay.”
“Do you have access to any weapons?”
I blinked. Okay. I hadn’t expected my mind to come up with that, but I could deal with this line of questioning. “No.” I thought of what I’d found in the chest. “Well, I did find something that I managed to use as a weapon.”
“Was that when you tried to escape?”
How did he know…? He didn’t. I did. My mind was creating what he said.
“What did you find?” he asked.
My lips pursed. “I believe it was a…glass cock.”
Ash went still against me. “I’m sorry. I believe you misspoke.”
“I didn’t.” My lips twitched. “There’s a chest, and in it are a bunch of what appear to be glass cocks. I think they were…” I shook my head, my stomach twisting as I thought about what their presence signified. “I don’t even know if they’re still in the chest. I haven’t looked, but I imagine they’ve been removed.”
Ash didn’t say anything for a long moment, but then he gently guided my head back. As our gazes connected, I detected the faintest scent of stale lilacs.
I tensed, the back of my neck prickling. There was a sound, a distant murmur. I started to turn my head.
Ash stopped me. “I need you to listen to me, okay? Have you told Kolis about what will happen once you begin the Ascension? That only I can Ascend you?”
I frowned. “No, I haven’t.”
“He believes you’re Sotoria.”
How did he…?
“You need to tell him that you will die without me,” Ash said. “You are his weakness. He will do anything to keep Sotoria alive—to keep you alive. Even release you to me to prevent that.”
“What?” I laughed. “Kolis will think it’s a trap. He won’t believe that. I wouldn’t believe it.”
“But he will believe the Fates,” Ash insisted. “He knows they cannot lie.”
I wasn’t so sure about them not being able to lie. They had a knack for stretching the truth.
“Listen to me, Sera. I cannot summon the Arae. Neither can Kolis.” Ash lowered his head so our eyes met. “Only the Primal of Life can. And for all—”
“For all intents and purposes, that is me,” I finished for him. “Ash…”
“He’s going to release me, Sera. Once that happens, summon the Fates.” His features had sharpened, becoming more hollow. Shadows blossomed under his eyes, and those murmurs…
They were voices that didn’t come from my lake but elsewhere.
I would wake soon. I wasn’t ready. I wanted to stay here.
“Do you understand?” Ash implored. “Promise me you will do this. That you will tell Kolis the truth and then summon the Fates. All you have to do is call for them. They will answer.”