Total pages in book: 77
Estimated words: 73425 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 367(@200wpm)___ 294(@250wpm)___ 245(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 73425 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 367(@200wpm)___ 294(@250wpm)___ 245(@300wpm)
She nods.
“But aren’t you betraying one partner by being with the other?”
I shrug.
“It depends on how you see it. If everyone in the triad is open and honest, then is it really betrayal? There are many ways to love sweetheart, and one person doesn’t always have to be number one.”
She nods with understanding.
“Yes, kind of like how you can love a child, and love your mother, but those are different types of love. There’s room enough for both.”
My eyes gleam.
“Exactly, sweetheart. People act like love is going to run out someday, as if there isn’t enough to go around. I think that’s very small minded. It’s not a pie that we have to divide. We can bake more pies of different flavors, and so long as you have love, it’ll all work out.”
She nods and we fall silent for a bit. Having this conversation with Mira has me thinking about the mindset I came into the dinner with. Jordan and I have been dancing around the fact that we need to define our relationship with this girl, and we haven’t quite broached the subject. It’s right at the tip of our tongues. I look at my buddy and he nods. Then I turn back to the beautiful girl.
“Uh, Mira. Can you excuse Jordan and I for a second? I need to talk to him about something.” She looks surprised, but nods.
Jordan and I get up, and we walk down the hallway for some privacy. After all, I need to make sure he’s on the same page as me before we move forward. This upcoming conversation with Mira is the most important one I’ve had in years, and it’s important to be gentle yet straightforward at once.
14
Mira
Jordan and Jason just left the room again, and this time it was a little more abrupt. I wonder what they’re doing. They’ve gone to talk about something important, I’m assuming, because that’s what Jason made it sound like.
I wonder what they’re discussing though? I guess I won’t know unless they tell me. Would it be rude to ask? How open can we be with one another?
Earlier, the men were asking me all about my life before New York. I think that even though my family never had much when it came to material things, I personally got really lucky because there was a lot of love going around. I mean there was a lot of familial support. My Aunt Angie was a rock for me, and without her, I wouldn’t be here. Without a lot of people actually, I wouldn’t be here.
But lately, I’ve been wondering if Jason and Jordan are a part of my life plan. I have no idea where I’m going, not really. School seems okay for now, but who knows? I had a meeting with the Art History department, and the major sounded like something right up my alley. They said I had enough time to make my final decision, and I’m feeling pretty good about officially joining. But what if I want something different in two years?
Plus, there are other things I’m less sure about. I was worried that I was taking too long to get started when it comes to romance. Everyone seemed to have boyfriends already, and Jessie and I were the only girls who had zero experience. Even people on TV grow rapturous when talking about love! So what was I missing out on?
Plus, seeing girls like Cindy so far ahead of me in these particular aspects of life made me nervous. I began to think that if I was this behind on where I was supposed to be, I might never catch up. Boys were always a scary concept to me. Approaching them was the biggest no, filling me with dread. A few of them even told me to my face they found me gross and fat, bringing me to tears.
But Jason and Jordan have entirely changed my thinking recently. I’m beginning to think I may have been wrong all this time. I’ve always done what I was supposed to do, whether it was church, academics, or friends. I always swam along with the crowd, and coming to the big city was my first real act of rebellion, if it can even be called that.
But it was something done purely for myself, and I don’t regret it one bit. After all, Jason and Jordan were talking all about how traditional paths aren’t always the best ones. You’ve got to live for yourself as well as for others, and they’re right. I can’t always worry about whether so and so is going to approve. I have to do what’s right for me.
We also talked about our family values. I know I’m not the first girl they’ve been with. I mean, I don’t know if they’ve been in this exact situation before with someone else, but this can’t be their first ménage. They just seem so comfortable with the whole thing.