Total pages in book: 106
Estimated words: 97951 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 490(@200wpm)___ 392(@250wpm)___ 327(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 97951 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 490(@200wpm)___ 392(@250wpm)___ 327(@300wpm)
“Yes, I do. There are men who I suspected were sex addicts because they were on my OnlyFans all the time, spending thousands of dollars every month. Or, they’d be in the club practically every day of the week.”
“Yes, that’s often a telling sign of someone suffering from an addiction. You are not a sex addict, but some of your clients were. It goes with the territory.” She nodded in agreement.
“Has things slowed down since you’ve been married for quite a while?”
“Unfortunately for my wife, my libido has not lowered or slowed down in the least over the years, but she’s okay, and I am satisfied. Now, do you know why I decided to answer such personal questions tonight, Nadia?”
“No, why?”
“Because something told me that if I give you this gift, the gift of personal information regarding my own biggest flaw, it will assist you in something that you’ll encounter. Me sharing something with you that only a few people know, in such detail, was important today. I would have preferred not to, but you needed to hear it more than I needed to keep it close to my chest. I don’t hide my sex addiction. I talk about it all the time in my seminars, but the particulars of some of the things that transpired in my life and my marriage due to it, well, that’s different because it involves other people, and I wish to protect my wife and children from any embarrassment that my past actions could bring.”
“I can understand that.”
“But, I’m talking about it anyway. With you. Because something may happen between you and Lennox, something out of either of your control, and you need to have patience and show compassion for and towards one another. Something, or someone, that is disruptive or evil may enter the picture, and you two will need to be united to confront and combat it. It may not be an addiction, as in my case, but it will be something that is potentially destructive. Something that is trying to take ahold and control of either your or Lennox’s life, and you must resist, and push back. You have to work together on it, just like me and my wife.” She got chills. “My addiction was definitely disruptive, and it was also evil because it did not yield good fruits. I did not make strong connections due to it. In fact, I did the exact opposite.
“I tore connections apart. I had to use those iniquitous deeds as fuel, and turn them into something positive. That’s why I am sitting behind this desk. When the evil disruption comes to your doorstep, because it will if it has not already, I want you to remember this conversation. To every problem, there is a solution. No matter how hard or huge the difficulty seems. I was level five. Level fuckin’ five.” He held up five fingers. “There seemed no way out, but there was. There is nothing Satan can create that God does not have an antidote for, baby, but it’s up to you to find it, and then to use it.”
She grabbed a tissue and dabbed at her eyes.
“My antidote was learning skills for self-control, prayer, accepting myself for who I am, teaching, training, and coaching others, and Xenia. She’s my medicine. I have this problem, but I have a wife who loves me and is understanding of the situation, and she’s seen me grow and conquer it. I can go days, even weeks now without sex if necessary. Before? That would have been unheard of, and quite frankly, impossible. I would attempt celibacy and be successful for a while, but I always eventually fell off the wagon. Our first year of marriage was overshadowed by my addiction. If it is possible to be fucked to death, she was damn near close to that, but once she had our first child, things were greatly improved. She and I make jokes about it now, but at the time it wasn’t funny at all. We were newlyweds, and I was stressing her the hell out. She had patience with me, and now, here we are. I am not a problem in that regard anymore, and our sex life is fantastic.”
“I love hearing stories like this. Overcoming obstacles. It gives people hope, and you know what? I believe you when you tell me that you sharing something so deeply personal may help me later down the line. In fact, I think I already know what this applies to. Thank you for that.”
“You’re welcome. So, since you asked me about that, I can use it to go into another point that needs to be made since you wanted my advice about your relationship.”
“Yes, please do.”
“Lennox is a ladies’ man. He enjoys the company of women, but he also respects women. He’s also enthusiastic about fighting and violent physical altercations, but he doesn’t act on it often. He discovered, unfortunately, that when he physically hurt someone, it felt good and made him forget his trauma for a short while. He wishes it weren’t true, and he finds it shameful. Like me, he found a way to cope with it. This is why he’s attracted to the gym, Nadia. This is why he is a gym rat, and it is a good, healthy profession for him. He needs it.”